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စား၀တ္ေနေရးအဆင္ေျပေစရန္ ဆန္အိတ္လွဴျခင္း ႏွင့္ အျခားလိုအပ္သည္မ်ား လွဴဒါန္းျခင္းတို႔ျဖင့္ လစဥ္ ေထာက္ပံ့သြားမည္ျဖစ္ပါသည္။ သီလရွင္ႏွင့္ ေက်ာင္းသားမ်ား ေအာင္ျမင္စြာ ပညာသင္ၾကားႏိုင္ေရး အတြက္ အနီးကပ္စာျပေပးမည့္ ဆရာမ (၆) ဦးအား တစ္လလွ်င္ (၅) ေသာင္းက်ပ္ျဖင့္ ငွါးရမ္းေပးရန္ စီစဥ္ထားပါသည္။ ပညာေရးအလွဴအား ေစတနာရွင္မ်ားမွလည္း ပါ၀င္ လွဴဒါန္းႏိုင္ပါသည္။ ေကာက္ခံရရွိေသာ အလွဴေငြမ်ားအား ဘဏ္စာအုပ္ထားရွိ၍ ေငြစာရင္းရွင္းတမ္းအား လစဥ္ေဖာ္ျပသြားမည္ ျဖစ္ပါသည္။ ေက်ာင္းသား/ေက်ာင္းသူမ်ား၏ မွတ္တမ္းမ်ားအား အလွဴရွင္မ်ားထံသို႔လည္း ေပးပို႔သြားပါမည္။

ပညာေရးအလွဴေတာ္ ႏႈိးေဆာ္ခ်က္


ရန္ကုန္ျမိဳ႕ အေသာကာရာမ သီလရွင္စာသင္တုိက္မွ နဝမတန္း ေျဖဆုိမည့္ သီလရွင္ ဆရာေလးမ်ားအတြက္ ဆရာ၊ ဆရာမမ်ား လစဥ္ ထားေပးႏုိင္ရန္ ပညာေရးအလွဴရွင္မ်ား လုိအပ္ေနပါသည္။ ေရႊေစတီ ဘုန္းေတာ္ၾကီးသင္ပညာေရးေက်ာင္းတြင္လည္း ဆင္းရဲႏြမ္းပါးသည့္ ၉ တန္းႏွင့္ ၁၀ တန္း ေက်ာင္းသားမ်ား ေက်ာင္းအိပ္ေက်ာင္းစား ေနထုိင္ပညာဆည္းပူးႏုိင္ေရးအတြက္ ကူညီေထာက္ပံ့မည့္ ကုသုိလ္ရွင္မ်ား လုိအပ္လ်က္ ရွိပါသည္။ ေစတနာရွင္ အလွဴရွင္မ်ား အေနျဖင့္ ေထရဝါဒ ဗုဒၶဘာသာ လူငယ္မ်ားအသင္း http://www.mmtheravada.org ဖုန္း
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သီလရွင္ ဆရာေလးမ်ားႏွင့္ ကေလးမ်ား ဇြန္လအမီ ေက်ာင္းတက္ႏုိင္ေရးအတြက္ ကာလဒါန ကုသုိလ္အျဖစ္ သဒၶါတတ္အား နည္းမ်ားမဆုိ လွဴဒါန္းကူညီၾကပါရန္ ႏႈိးေဆာ္အပ္ပါသည္။

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ပညာေရးအလွဴေတာ္လႉဒါန္းမည့္အစီအစဥ္

ေထရ၀ါဒဗုဒဘာသာ လူငယ္မ်ား အသင္းမွ ဦးစီး၍ (၂၀၁၁) ခုႏွစ္တြင္ န၀မတန္းသို႔ တက္ေရာက္မည့္ ေက်ာင္းသား (၂၅) ေယာက္ႏွင့္ ေက်ာင္းသူ (၂၅) ေယာက္အား ပညာေရးေထာက္ပံ့မႈျပဳလုပ္ေပးႏိုင္ရန္ စီစဥ္ထားပါသည္။

ျပဳလုပ္မည့္အစီအစဥ္

ေက်ာင္းသားမ်ားအား ေရႊေစတီဘုန္းႀကီးေက်ာင္း (ဆရာေတာ္ ဦးေတဇႏၵိ၊ ခ/(၃) ရက္ကြက္၊ ေရႊေစတီေက်ာင္း၊ မဂၤလာဒုံၿမိဳ႕နယ္) တြင္ထားရွိမည္ျဖစ္ၿပီး ေက်ာင္းသားမ်ားသည္ မိမိတို႔ ဆႏၵအေလ်ာက္ ကိုရင္၀တ္လိုကလည္း ၀တ္ႏိုင္ပါသည္။ ေက်ာင္းသူမ်ားအား အေသာကာရာမ သီလရွင္စာသင္တိုက္ (ဆရာေလးေဒၚသုနႏၵာ (ဖုန္း-၀၉-၈၆၂၈၈၁၁)၊ ၀ါယာလက္ေစ်းမွတ္တိုင္၊ ေရႊႏွင္းဆီရပ္ကြက္၊ မဂၤလာဒံုၿမိဳ႕နယ္) တြင္ထားရွိပါမည္။ အေသာကာရာမေက်ာင္းမွ သီလရွင္မ်ားသာလက္ခံသည္ျဖစ္၍ ေက်ာင္းသူမ်ားမွာ သီလရွင္၀တ္ရပါမည္။ သီလရွင္မ်ားတက္ေရာက္ရမည့္ အ.ထ.က ေက်ာင္းမွာ အေသာကာရာမ ေက်ာင္းမွလက္ရွိ သီလရွင္မ်ား တက္ေရာက္ေနေသာ ေက်ာင္းျဖစ္၍ ပညာသင္ၾကားမႈတြက္ အခက္အခဲ မရွိႏိုင္ပါ။ စာသင္သူမ်ား စား၀တ္ေနေရးအဆင္ေျပေစရန္ ဆန္အိတ္လွဴျခင္း ႏွင့္ အျခားလိုအပ္သည္မ်ား လွဴဒါန္းျခင္းတို႔ျဖင့္ လစဥ္ ေထာက္ပံ့သြားမည္ျဖစ္ပါသည္။ သီလရွင္ႏွင့္ ေက်ာင္းသားမ်ား ေအာင္ျမင္စြာ ပညာသင္ၾကားႏိုင္ေရး အတြက္ အနီးကပ္စာျပေပးမည့္ ဆရာမ (၆) ဦးအား တစ္လလွ်င္ (၅) ေသာင္းက်ပ္ျဖင့္ ငွါးရမ္းေပးရန္ စီစဥ္ထားပါသည္။ ပညာေရးအလွဴအား ေစတနာရွင္မ်ားမွလည္း ပါ၀င္ လွဴဒါန္းႏိုင္ပါသည္။ ေကာက္ခံရရွိေသာ အလွဴေငြမ်ားအား ဘဏ္စာအုပ္ထားရွိ၍ ေငြစာရင္းရွင္းတမ္းအား လစဥ္ေဖာ္ျပသြားမည္ ျဖစ္ပါသည္။ ေက်ာင္းသား/ေက်ာင္းသူမ်ား၏ မွတ္တမ္းမ်ားအား အလွဴရွင္မ်ားထံသို႔လည္း ေပးပို႔သြားပါမည္။ အေသးစိတ္ေဆာင္ရြက္မည့္ အခ်က္အလက္မ်ားအားလည္း ဆက္လက္ေဖာ္ျပသြားပါမည္။

ေလ်ာက္ထားမည့္ သူမ်ား ျပည့္စုံရမည့္အခ်က္မ်ားမွာ

(က) ေက်ာင္းသူမ်ားမွာ သီလရွင္၀တ္ႏိုင္ရပါမည္။

(ခ ) မိဘမ်ားမွ ေနထိုင္ရန္ခြင့္ ျပဳသူျဖစ္ရပါမည္။

(ဂ ) စာသင္သားမ်ားေနထိုင္မည့္ ေက်ာင္းတြင္း စည္းကမ္းမ်ားကို တိက်စြာလိုက္နာရပါမည္။

(ဃ) ေက်ာင္းထားရန္ အမွန္တကယ္အခက္အခဲ ရွိေနသူျဖစ္ရပါမည္။

အထက္ပါအခ်က္အလက္မ်ားႏွင့္ ျပည့္စုံသူမ်ားသည္ ေထရ၀ါဒဗုဒၶဘာသာလွဴငယ္မ်ား အသင္းသို႔ ဆက္သြယ္ေမးျမန္းႏိုင္ပါသည္။ (http://mmtheravada.org)

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Thursday, December 31, 2009

with palms together



I have a good friend from when I first came here to Bangkok ten years ago who also married a Thai woman and had a baby, born just a couple of months before Joseph. They all moved to Australia where his wife made life hell for them with her gambling and partying and anger, but my friend stayed and fought and now has almost total care of the child. And he's a wonderful father.

He visited this week and stayed at Colin's house and I spent a few nights with them, playing with the child, talking to my friend about his struggle to be a dad, and missing Joseph. Really missing Joseph. Missing seeing him grow up, missing what I am able to contribute to his development, his sense of safety, and his knowledge of being totally, unconditionally loved.

I'm sure that his mother does her best, but I watched, helpless, years ago, days after he was born, as she put him in a car full of her Thai friends, all loud music and cigarette fumes. I've seen her strike her first son in a Bangkok street, I've seen her scream at him and lie to him and make her love conditional on his behaviour and compliance. And I know that she is desperately poor.

Her English is not so great, her education ceased when she was in her mid-teens, she is an ethnic minority living on benefits; things couldn't be much worse for my boy. I knew all this when I left England after she took him away. I knew this when I went back and tried to make things better the first time. But this week that knowledge has become so much more painful.

"Move on with your life" friends say. "Her friends tell you Joseph's not even your son. She took him away from you when he was just six weeks old, two days after getting her British permanent residence. She doesn't want you around and won't make life easy for you. Didn't she already lie to the social services that you beat them both? Not even your own parents will support you if you return, she hurt them far too much too. Stay away Marcus."

"Go to Japan" my friends say. "Go live with Ikumi. Ikumi is the most wonderful woman you've ever met. She's kind and faithful and will even support you as you continue to send money to your stepson and save money for when Joseph is older and wants to go to college. Going to England will mean certain and unrelenting poverty. And misery, if not the end, for you and Ikumi. How will that help anyone at all?"

They are right. I know that, and I tell myself the same everyday. After all, didn't I once try to go back? After my last year in Korea, with all the money I'd saved, rather than settle in Japan, I went back to England to find Joseph. I met his mum in the street. She refused to let me know where she was living, she refused to even let me see my son, she told me she didn't want me around.

So I left again. "But why" my other friend asks "did you do that?" I can't answer him. "Look at you" he says, "you're depressed, you've been depressed for years, and you'll always be like this until you do all that you can to see your son who you love and miss so badly. Forget the money, sleep in a homeless shelter if you have to, sleep in the street, at least you'll eventually get to see Joseph."

"Your son" he says "needs to know he has a dad who loves him. Let's face it, he needs someone who is more skilled at loving him than his mum is for most of the time. Go to Japan if you must, just to get the money to go back, but you've already left it too long, you've already missed three years of his life. Don't miss any more Marcus. Go back home. Go and fight for your son."



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I'm shaken by the rawness of my feelings. What have I been doing for the past three years? How much pain have I been carrying around? How much pain have I caused by my blindness and neglect? I dream of a Hollywood ending. I win the lottery, fly to Tokyo, put my arms around Ikumi and then we fly together to England to be with Joseph, to give him all the love he needs and deserves.

Instead, I just about have the bus fare to my apartment, which is where I'll go when I leave this Internet cafe. I'll probably have a nap and then, after waking up, take out my little blue meditation block and sit for a while. I don't know what else to do. I don't know of a better way to deal with this grief and pain and confusion. I don't know where else the answer is going to come from.


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The book is not with me to check right now, but Daehaeng Sunim in 'No River to Cross' says something along the lines of looking after your family being the action of a Bodhisattva, that we have no right to talk, even, about the Buddha-Dharma if we can't first look after the things closest to us. And she's right.

There will be no more posts from me. I need to stop thinking and talking. I need to shut up. Just stop, and sit, and shut the hell up. I need to rest, I need to let go of all this pain, I need to entrust it to the Buddha, (Buddha-nature, God, use whatever word you like) and wait and see what comes out. I place my palms together.

Marcus


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Photo: For more on this beautiful print, an extraordinarily generous gift from a good friend and Dharma brother, click here: Somewhere in Dhamma: somewhere I used go…
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ယခုအခါ ကမၻာတလႊားတြင္ရွိေနၾကေသာ ဓမၼဘေလာ့ဂ္ဂါမ်ားသည္ ေန ့စဥ္ႏွင့္ အမွ် အင္တာနက္ စာမ်က္ႏွာမ်ား ေပၚတြင္ ဓမၼႏွင့္သက္ဆိုင္ေသာ အေၾကာင္းအရာ အမ်ိဳးမ်ိဳးကို ပို ့စ္မ်ားေရးတင္လ်က္ ရွိေနၾကပါသည္။

ဘေလာ့ဂ္ဂါမ်ားမွ မိမိတို ့၏ကိုယ္ပိုင္ စာမ်က္ႏွာမ်ားမွတဆင့္ ေရးတင္ေနၾကသျဖင့္ ဖတ္ရႈေလ့လာသူမ်ားအတြက္ ေနရာမ်ားစြာသို ့ သြားေရာက္ ဖတ္ရႈေနၾကရပါသည္။

ထို ့ေၾကာင့္ စာဖတ္သူမ်ား အခ်ိန္ကုန္သက္သာေစရန္ႏွင့္ မိမိတို ့ ဖတ္ရႈလိုရာကို လြယ္လင့္တကူ ရွာေဖြနိဳင္ရန္ ေန ့စဥ္ေရးသား ေနၾကေသာ အေၾကာင္းအရာမ်ားကို တေနရာတည္းတြင္ စုစည္းေပးလိုေသာ ရည္ရြယ္ခ်က္ျဖင့္ ဤဘေလာ့ဂ္ကို စီစဥ္လိုက္ျခင္းျဖစ္ပါသည္။

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